Listen to your Captain...

my car isn't black

Tue, 14 Nov 2006 21:40:00 GMT

Have you ever laid down on your bed and puzzle over which sex & the city star is most like you? (LOL, yeah I know, silly.) But after lots of thought (in case you wanted to know) I'm totally Carrie. Why you ask? ....where do I start? I always make the "wrong decisions" and I have a tendency to over analyze every relationship until there is literally nothing left to think about. I love to go out and I am the life of the party. I am always laughing and I never stop. I always have some sort of male interest and I love nothing more than my friends. Seriously though, that show is like watching my life.

But seriously people, I need to stop making some of these very "Carrie" decisions! It just can't be healthy! I mean, it's entertaining to watch someone like me on tv, but in real life its not so much fun. It is kind of like a roller coaster.

But I'm just laughing and enjoying my very Carrie moments. Life never fails to surprise me, and that's what I love most. And I love my indecision. Lord knows I am just terrible with decision making.

My favorite story of the week has to be Amila and I the next morning after a drunken night that lasted from 10pm until 5 am the next morning. (trust me it was a CRAZY night out in Raleigh) Aj dropped off us that night, so the next morning I woke Amila up so we could go get breakfast and laugh about last nights outing. Well, it's pooring down rain, and its super cold and of course Amila's car has to be parked the farest away from the building. We then get to the car, and Amila is unlocking it and I ask "is your car black". She says "no, my car isn't black". A moment later, I state, "well isn't this car black?". So, it turns out we were outside in the cold trying to break into one of her neighbor's cars. LOL!!! It was just too funny. (it was also a sign someone should be driving!)

more funny moments to come.

love always,
jess

more sick weekends

Sun, 15 Oct 2006 17:30:00 GMT

Okay, so here is what I learned about myself during my sick weekend/vacation from myself. First and for most I learned that it is okay to be sick and to just be sick. This sounds silly, but too often I continue pushing myself to the limit because I'm too worried about what others will think or I am worried about letting someone else down when really I may let myself down.

Secondly I learned that people will surprise you sometimes. You see when you are weak who is really there for you and who really isn't. I also saw that I don't need anyone to be there for me anymore, meaning that I am in some form of fashion I am independent. So, if I am alone, I will be okay. And for so long, my greatest fear was to be alone. To be honest, it is still a little bit of a fear but not so very big anymore. I saw what it was like to be alone these last 3 days and it wasn't so bad.

I also had no idea how many people loved me despite me losing myself. I also had no idea how many people respected and would loose faith in me for loosing me. Well, even angels fall. LOL. One has to mess up in order to find themselves again and I'm stronger for it.

So, the happy silly goose has woken up. And I'm back. Never to be lost again. I know I lost myself after graduation and after the drama started but I'm okay again. For I finally forgiven my past, and my present. So now onto the future. It's going to be a happy one.

So here's a toast for having more sick weekends...

love,

jess

big purple bed

Wed, 05 Apr 2006 23:14:00 GMT

i can't express enough how i'm dying and i mean DYING to graduate!!!! school this semster has been downright nerve racking!!! i swear, i'm either going to get stronger from this experience or die trying. these last few months of studying and working non-stop have taught me to party even harder when i can, laugh more at jokes, enjoy the time w/ my friends while they are around, not to be afraid of being alone, and HOW to live without sleep. the last one has been the hardest transition. i seriously now run on 8 hours a sleep a week. i mean, even when i go to sleep, when i think i'm going to get 7 hours asleep in, i can't! i lay there in my big purple bed and start thinking about all the work i have to do. and it's not even school that's stressing me out, it's this whole process of finding a "real job" out there. lol!!!! maybe i should just pack my bags, move out to oregon! i'd probably have better luck out west. no offense people, but i'm first and foremost a west coaster. but i have learned to love raleigh! (there i said it!)

so, i'm done w/ my rant on how my life is no fun right now! but have no fear, my roomie and i are having a huge party when we get done w/ our last final. we plan on drinking and drinking more 'til the sun comes up when that day comes! lol! god, i'm going to miss her when she moves up north! but that's what life is all about, change. like robert frost said "nothing gold can stay". so enjoy the moment, and let life work the rest out! (kind of like i'm hoping i'll magically get an A on this BUS 480 test tommrow!)

love to all of you!!!! the captain will return before you know it...

love, captain

break from my obligations

Sun, 26 Mar 2006 09:35:00 GMT

i really wonder who reads this thing sometimes. it says on my little counter that this page has been visited 226 times. and i guess, thanks for caring guys, but i haven't written an entry at all this month!!! so, i'll to get better. i guess here's the march edition!

not much to report. i'm just busy smiling, working hard at 2 jobs, and getting my degree. i've been slacking off alot on this, but i'm also working on getting a real job w/ a salary. the best part about being finance is that their are so many job options out there, and so much versitility. so i'll be alright. just got to get my act together.

well, here's something fun to report. i took a break from my obligations and went to ryan o'shea's band's debut performance this past friday!!! i didn't know what to expect, but it was actually alot of fun! plus i ran into alot of my sorority sisters, including my little so we had fun hitting on various boys on kelly's behalf! lol!!!! i love my roomie! no, but check out "just born tuesday" (that's the band!).

time flys. it's almost april. which means i have 5 weeks of school left in my undergraduate career!!!!! oh, and everyone should be applauding stacy! she got into grads school! and alica got into medical school! snaps to them! lol, we are all getting so old! we're getting real jobs, so scary!

alrighty, well, i love all of you!

love, jess

Starbucks Aroma Coffee Machine Adventure

Fri, 03 Feb 2006 17:44:00 GMT

I just wanted to write a quick entry and express how nice today has been! (besides the gorgeous weather) Last night I got to sleep a whole 10 hours! It was so nice to get to sleep in!!! I've been working on school and Best Buy so much, I have zero time to sleep anymore. Also, I finally have a working starbucks machine!

Now here's my drama, that has actually turned into a positive experience! I call it the Starbucks Aroma Coffee Machine Adventure. My friend Robin got me this nice coffee machine for Christmas, but it only worked once, then it went to hell. The thing would spill coffee everywhere, and get clogged. It was a mess. So I finally got around to returning it the other night. They were really nice over at Cameron Village, and let me exchange it without having the recepit. I was so happy, went home, and they gave me a BROKEN machine! Now I was pissed, Kelly was like, "You better give them hell". But I decided to go with another approach, and kill them with kindness. And it worked, the guy felt so guilty he gave me a free coffee. Although what sucked was that they didn't have another machine in the store.

So, he sent me to the Starbucks on Peace Street. Those boys were sweethearts over there, and let me exchange the coffee machine, even though I didn't have a recepit. (so, in case you were wondering, starbucks doesn't care about you having the recepit) They were so funny, saying I could hook it up there and make some coffee to make sure it works! The other said to make sure I season the machine properly. Both gentleman were good looking. And when it was all said and done the guy gave me a starbucks card with his number and said "Sweetheart if you ever have another problem with that coffee machine, or have any other questions, give me a call!" And he was a hottie, as was his counterpart! LOL! So, the moral of the story is that I got a working coffee machine and 2 hot guys phone numbers!

I'm definately going to continue to visit w/ starbucks! They definately kept my business!

What is it with me and guys? I got asked out twice today at Best Buy by customers! LOL! It's like they can sense I'm single again!

LOL! Well, I'm just going to smile and go with the flow as always! Everything happens for a reason, and for the meantime I got to kick some ass at my school work! I also have to keep performing at best buy, and also work hard at my Internship! (lol, yes I added more to my plate! I'm now offically a Financial Intern for MIFG) And somehow I have time to go shopping for a new bathing suit... it's all Stacy's fault!

well, I hope all of you reading this is smiling and laughing at my starbucks drama!

love to all of you,
jess

so thankful that we have one another

Wed, 01 Feb 2006 17:40:00 GMT

Can't believe it's already February. Time flys. Each year I live I swear, it goes by faster than the previous year. I just hope I never stop smiling, laughing and enjoying each moment.

Well, life in Chi Omega has been exciting! My great grand little sister, Emily became a sister last weekend! I'm so proud of my Chi O family. All of us have gone through some real rough times while here at NCSU. I'm just so thankful that we have one another to help us get through it all. And of course, we have each other to go out partying together! For those of you who missed it, Initation Party rocked! It was the frist time in awhile I had been drinking at a house party and not a bar. It was a nice change of pace!!!!

As for school, I PASSED my BUS 110 exam! So now I'm only in 19 hours instead of 21! So that makes things a little bit easier on myself. Although, because of my school work I was forced to say goodbye to David so that I can get all this work done. It was unfortunate, but that was how the cookie crumbled. I'm just glad he was understanding and I got a friend out of the whole thing.

In other news, poor Aj had his surgey last weekend. Let's pray he recovers well, and is whole again for this weekend! I just want to offically state once again, for the record, that I hate Valintines Day. It's one of the worst holidays we have out there. And I don't say that because I don't have someone to share it with (because I do!), I say this because we shouldn't need a special day to tell someone we love them. We should be able to do this without thinking.

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Anyways, I'm following my heart now, and I'm smiling. For I have no idea why I didn't do that a long time ago. I have offically stopped doing what other people think I should be doing and started doing what I want to do. And I'm just so thankful to be living. I just can't wait for my future to start... and it's coming very soon!

love always,
jess

queen of procrastination

Fri, 20 Jan 2006 21:33:00 GMT

So, when I was a kid, I used to always celebrate my 1/2 birthday! I think I got the idea from Alice and Wonderland, and yes, they sing "merry happy unbirthday" and not 1/2 birthday. But see, I'm really, REALLY bad w/ english like my sister always reminds me and I thought they were saying "half" and not "un". But when I was a kid, I would always buy one of those small bags of m&m's to celebrate. How cheesy? If only I had time! The point of this story? Well, today is my half birthday! And I forget what made me think about it...

yes, i'm totally random, but that's what makes me, me!

Time is a luxury I don't have. Yet, I'm writting in here 'cuz I'm getting tired of doing my dumb webassign for my international portfolo mmgt. finance class! (what kind of finance class has webassigns? it's too much an engineering thing!) I'm the queen of procrastination. Yet it's weird to be doing my homework on a Friday Night and not going out to drink! But hell, I'll have the degree come May 13th, and hopefully it'll be bitter sweet! And then I'll start taking over the world, one day at a time! I just don't know where to start.... I guess writting up a new resume would be a good start.

Just smilie and go w/ the flow! The moment you start crying and feeling sorry for yourself is when you stop living and stop seeing what's really important. It's the small things in life that matter, not the big things.

To close, random shit that happened to jessica:

- I got asked out today by the ABC store cashier
- I got lectured today for the 50th time that the people who work at geek squad are "agents" and not "geeks" and that displinary action will be taken if I don't stop saying "geeks"! it drives me nuts because people need to have a sense of humor over there! i mean REALLY... there are by far worse things i could be doing! like STEALING!
- I texted my sister 'cuz COLLEEN is back on Y&R!
- I was a walking Hardees commerical tonight to my roommate!

Well, I hope I made someone laugh! In the meantime, back to the books....

love always,
jess

cliff notes version

Wed, 18 Jan 2006 08:52:00 GMT

It's been awhile, quite awhile actually. I lost alot of inspiration to write, until a good friend has pushed me back into it. So far my senior year at NCSU has been fabulous minus the amount of school work they give us! Time flys when your having fun. And that's all I have been doing, is smiling, laughing, and letting life throw me a few curve balls. Let's see, what can I say about my life currently? I am taking 21 hours in school to graduate (but that might change just to get rid of all my stress), I have a new boyfriend who's amazing, I have awesome friends who really do care about me, then I have mental ones (gotta keep the balance right?), and I love my job at best buy. Can't think of what else to write, but that's the cliff notes version of what I have been neglecting to write in here. Stay tuned for the return of Jessica's ramblings!

love,
jess

Thanks Stacy

Wed, 13 Jul 2005 19:31:00 GMT

Well, as always, life has been grand! No complaints! This past weekend I was in Raleigh visiting my lovely boyfriend!!!! We had a blast together.

I was pleasntly surprised when I accidently got on the Knightdale Bypass to Raleigh. Believe it or not the trip now from Greenville to Raleigh is now only 1 hour - 1 hour 15. CRAZY? I know. Brandy thought I was speeding when I arrived at his apartment late Friday night. When, really, I was crusing at 75, singing Les Miserables at the top of my lungs. (be glad you weren't in the car!)

Our visit was simple and lovely. We had so many nice talks, long walks. Watched a few movies, and just truely enjoyed one anothers company. I just love how even though we've been together now for well over a year, we're still loving each moment we have together and learning something new about one another all of the time. I just don't see myself ever getting tired of him. I just love how we always laugh when we're together (still)!!!

During my visit to Raleigh I got to see my roommate, Kelly! She was in Raleigh for 5 days from Colorado visiting her new boyfriend! It was really nice to see her again. I miss her alot. It was also nice to see our men get along really well. It should be a fun time at our apartment next year. I'll post up here when we decided to fully initate the apartment with a craninum party & of course, beer.

Today is the greatest best friend's in the world's 21st birthday!!!!! At midnight, Robin, my sister, and myself had a mini-party for her. We drank champaign and had pink cupcakes, laughing and celebrating. I told Stacy, she better enjoy this for what it's worth. None of the other birthdays will be this exciting! I can't believe how old we have become. It seems like yesterday Stacy and I were slipping a note in Walker Whitley's locker at Aycock, letting him know our friend liked him. LOL. We were so worried someone would see us drop it in there and someone would think we liked him. Oh, how simple life was then. Thanks Stacy for always being there for me. I couldn't have survived Rose High/life/my parents without you.

So, it's a gloomy day in Greenville. It's hard to be peppy, but I'm getting more and more excited about Harry Potter. I hope someone out there is just as excited about it as myself! Brandy is off in Victoria, Canada doing alsorts of fun stuff like wine tasting and high noon teas. lol. I can't wait 'til he gets back so I can hear all about his vacation.

Time to go try to be constructive.

You'll find me laughing somewhere....as always!

love,
jess

okay, not that famous

Sun, 03 Jul 2005 18:29:00 GMT

This past week has been a fun one! Where to begin? First off, I had a great "pajama party" with the girls (Stacy, Robin, Bejal, and my sister Jen). I don't know how it became a pj party, but it was a hoot getting to hang out with the girls and joke around while watching a movie. We watched "The Count of Montee Cristo", not the biggest chic flick in the world, but definately a good movie. This week if you wish to attend, we will be watching the famous "Instructional Video On Computer Networking" written by Jessica Gilbert and directed by Jessica Gilbert & Robin Croskery. The film has 2 famous actresses in it. (okay, not that famous, but they like to think they are) It's going to fun, you'll be bummed if you miss it. I think the theme is hawaian but I'll keep you posted!!! LOL.

Gotta love the girls! So far, I have had the honor to know so many wonderful people in my lifetime. As I sit here and listen to James Taylor (which is great music) and it helps me especially reflect on life. I couldn't ask for better friends, better parents, better best friend, better sibblings or a better boyfriend. I wouldn't change a thing. I'm just very lucky.

Speaking of lucky, thanks to my friend Leah at work I was able to have a nice long visit with Brandy!!!! (We were able to switch our days off so we could both see our men.) We had a great visit. We went to Beafort, NC and went kahking [author's note: i can't spell, and since this is my blog, i choose not use a spell check], which was lovely. It was funny, Brandy wasn't used to a 2 person kahki, so he kept banging his paddle against mine! Then we had a lovely lunch together, went shopping. I just have so much fun with him. I love how we can always make me laugh, smile. He's just amazing! I thank God everyday for him being in my life!

Best Buy has been better. The new people at Best Buy (the cashiers I've been trainning) are much nicer than the old timers at Greenville.

OH!!! I saw the movie "The War of the Worlds" and boy was I scared! Robin and I saw it together randomly last night after I got off work and boy was I scared. I don't remember the plot that well when I read it a long time ago but I don't remember things being that scary. This movie wasn't like "Indepence Day" when you just see buildings getting destroyed by aliens, with comic relief from Will Smith & Jeff Goldburg. This movie shows people being killed, and nonstop terror. It was just depressing. And we (okay, okay I) made a poor judgement call to see it at 11 o'clock at night. We should have seen "The Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants". LOL. I love Robin! We had fun, despite me being afraid of an unrealistic story plot.

Well, I'm off to read Harry Potter. I'm re-reading books 4 & 5 so that I'm ready for book 6! Get excited!!!! Book 6 is going to be something great!

love always,
jess

P.S.- This is random, but has anyone caught on yet that I take a random line from the journal and make it the title? Just wondering if anyone is paying attention...

you have to do something for yourself

Sat, 25 Jun 2005 22:52:00 GMT

Life is always interesting. I may be working 40 hours a week, but things still have a way to surprise me despite it all becoming so predictable.

Bosses suck. Especially when their "new" and have this new power bestowed to them. They becoming annoying and annal really fast. This new Senior named Rhonda reminds me of Kia at my other store. Both are rude, belittling, and are not constructive. I never understood why people like that are given leadership positions. A good leader is able to lead and change their people for the better without critizing who they are. So tired of this girl. I just keep telling myself, soon I'll be gone and I'll go back to evil KEITH!

LOL! If only I was at camp! Best Buy is great, but I'm getting so tired doing the same thing over and over again. I keep telling myself, at least I have one month left of this torture. I miss the sunsets, the singing, laughing, the range, the kids, and most importantly PENNY, RHEA, ABBY, IVEY, HEATHER, MOLLY, SHERIDAN, MEI LING, and KARA. lol.....

So.... Fun stuff!!! On my one day off this week, I had an amazing time with my sister and stacy. I picked Stacy up from her classes on campus and the three of us went underwear shopping at the one, the only Victoria Secret!!!! It's the one thing we do for ourselves every year. Buy comfortable underwear so we feel sexy 'cuz no one knows what we're wearing! I mean, you have to do something for yourself every now and then. We also had fun eatting lunch and gossiping at Panera, my 2nd favorite coffee place! I love those 2 so much!

Made random stops to sonic with Stacy! Getting my car fixed this coming week for free!!!! Can't complain at all there. Had one night this week when my brother and I just hung out. It was fun being silly with Jeff and not have to share him! He's always w/ that girlfriend! Finally met Robin's guy. So, yes, it's been a great week full of lots of fun and excitment! GREAT NEWS: I get to see my sweetheart this week! I love you Brandy!

But here's my new obsession: the musical WICKED! The lyrics, the story, the singing is just amazing! One day I'll post the story up here so everyone can learn it. I promise you, once you hear the song "Defying Gravity", which is when Elphba (the "wicked" witch of the west) decides that she has to 'fly' solo because the wizard needs to be stoped, and Glenda (the witch of the north) doesn't understand why her friend is choosing this path... aww It's just so great. I just love the singing and the strong bond of the 2 best friends, Glenda and Elphba. Reminds me of Stacy & i! So question, which one of us is who? (Don't answer that)

So, yes life is great. But now I have to go to bed for an 8 o'clock meeting!

lots of love!

love,
jess

Bunco, Lizzy, and Father's Day

Sun, 19 Jun 2005 17:07:00 GMT

It's been a crazy week. Filled with alot of interesting events including Bunco, Lizzy, and Father's Day

So today is fathers day! And so far, my daddy is having a great day! We have done all of our usual traditions. Made dad a big breakfest. Snoopy was kind of enough to get Dad the paper. We all went to the Episcpal Church with dad, which dad loves. Went to B&N for a very long time (but gotta love coffee). And saw a movie. Getting ready for steaks, cake and gifts!

My week has been long and stressful. So much for summer being relaxing. I'm working full time in retail. It is nice to have money, but the trade off is that I have no time. Although Stacy has a tradition now of stopping by the Gilbert house randomly and joining me on the couch for nonsense talks and studying for her exams. We even somehow got suckered into playing Bunco with my mom's friends. It was alright, but it really is a pointless game. I think the point of Bunco is to sit, eat, drink, and gossip about people in the "grown-up" world. The highlight of the evening for me was when my former AP Stats teacher sitting next to me, said "shit" when she got Bunco! and had to wear the Bunco Crown! Classic! Another good moment was when Stacy won a prize for having the most loses. LOL. At least she got paid for her services.

In other news, I got to visit my prince this past Thurs Night/Friday. It was wonderful to see him and have no interuptions. I mean, I love it when he comes to Greenville, but it's also nice to be able to visit with one another and have quiet time. He was so sweet, cooked me an itallien dinner himself. We had a great evening watching tv, and talking. Although, I still had my bad cough and couldn't stay up late and talk like we both love to do.

So the worst thing that happened to me: When Brandy and I went to Lizzy (my car) to go shopping/see the new Batman movie we discovered that my parked car had been hit by the orange sudan parked parell in front of it. Initally I was furious at the bright orange sudan! Turns out, they weren't the ones to be mad at. After calling the NCSU cop who left his calling card on my dashboard, he arrived to inform us that Thursday Night an idiot DRUNK DRIVER hit the orange sudan parked in front of my car, and hit them so hard that they crashed the orange car into mine. Talk about crazy, random, and scary.

The loser driver of the SUV that hit the orange car was damn lucky that he only hit a 2 parked cars. He could have easily hit a moving car and hurt someone else. I'm lucky for one, my car is fully drivable and has just a few scraches on it (although the bumper is going to need to be replaced) and two, the DWI guy has insurance to pay for it. I'm glad the idiot got to spend a day in jail. Bad decisions on his part.

He was so drunk, he couldn't leave the parking lot! go figure he hit Lizzy (which by the way this marks the 2nd time she's been hit in a parking lot)! Lizzy is my name for my car! i even have a beanie named Lizzy that sits in the dashboard! The drunk hit my car so hard poor Lizzy the mascot got knocked off!!!

Overall, I had a spledid visit with Brandy. He's the greatest person in my life and I couldn't imagine my future without him! Thanks sweetheart for everything (and especially for helping me with the whole drunk driver ordeal) At least the rest of the day was so eventful. we got to enjoy batman and have a picnic together!

Well- I must go rejoin my family for father's day! If you take anything away from this, DON'T DRINK AND DRIVE! I know you hear it a thousand times, but it really, really isn't a good idea.

Love always! (stop by best buy sometime!)

love,
jess

a sick Jessica is no fun

Wed, 08 Jun 2005 10:26:00 GMT

So, today I am sick! I guess going 3 days in a row with 5 hours of sleep will catch up on someone. I guess God is telling me to take it easy, because so far my summer vacation which was planned to be stress free, is very much stressful!

It's stressful in that I'm trying so hard to help my friends and family out with their problems, that I forget to deal with my own. Also, working at the G-vegas store is stressful. It's just hard to be "new" at a store, but know what your doing, and be treated like your new. I really, really can't wait to go back to Cary. As I see it, I've got a month and half left here, so no need to make a huge fuss aobut it.

On a much brighter note, I'm really enjoying all the time I've been spending with Stacy, Amila and Robin. I'm really liking how I can just randoming go to Stacy's house or go out to a club with Robin and Amila when I feel like it. It's such a shame we don't have more time for one another when we are in school, but it's nice that we are taking advantage of the time we have.

Awesome news: my cousin Betsy just got engaged! I can't believe it! It seems like yesterday we were goofing around with make-up in her room! The wedding will be next summer, July 15th, and I can't wait! I guess the cousins are getting old. I guess we all had to grow up some day!

Well, I'm off to lay around the room and get better. Brandy is supposed to come visit me tommrow, and I don't want to be ill when he comes. We all know a sick Jessica is no fun!

love always,
jess

then it changes on you

Thu, 02 Jun 2005 21:01:00 GMT

So school is over in case you haven't figured it out yet. And I am now in Greenville for the summer. I am definately enjoying the freedom that the summer has given me. I get to focus on working out, reading the books I want, my friends, my boyfriend, and my family more.

No complaints so far, although my parents drive me nuts. Scary thing, but next year I'll be on my own and no longer under their wing!!! I think I can do it but it's kind of a scary though. I've been busy thinking and planning for my new apartment next year with Kelly!!! We're going to have such a blast together. We are such dorks. We are already planning our color schemes and stuff. Such dorks.

My new Best Buy is fun. The store is alot more slack, but it's completely different from my old store. I miss it. I miss raleigh. You know how it is, when you have all your friends, and get comfortable and then it changes on you. But the people at Greenville are really nice, and I'm thinking of it more as adding to my current circle of friends. Plus, this store gives me many more hours, and I actually get magazines and Product Replacement Plans here.

The past couple of nights, I've had so much fun hanging out w/ Amila, Robin and Stacy. They are all 3 by far the greatest friends on this earth. And we are all so crazy together. It's a shame Amila has to go to Bosnia so long! But that's the greatest part of our friendship. We don't have to hang out all the time, but when we do, it's like we never miss a beat.

So, I'm missing Brandy. He's in raleigh doing his summer internship. But he has really been a doll about the whole thing. He does such a good job showing me that he loves me without being around me alot. He's definately a keeper.

Well, I'm off to hang out w/ my crazy sibblings. I promise I'll do a better job writting in here!

love,
jess

should i go to coldplay? i can't decide. i don't want to let down ivey!!!!

Happy Birthday Brandy!!!!

Thu, 21 Apr 2005 12:13:00 GMT

Happy Birthday Brandy!!!!

Today is Brandy's 21st birthday! And what a happy/caoutic birthday it has been. I guess it's part of the bureden of having a birthday during the year, specifically during the school year (something I have never had to experience). School somehow forces us to focus on things we don't want to, and ignore the stuff we want to focus on. injustice I tell you!!!! But so far, he's having fun. He got his first beer at midnight at Mich's (the local NCSU bar), breakfest w/ his dad and he got my birthday gift from him (guitar music of his favorite bands and cool "manly" shot glasses.

Poor guy, he's working really hard in the library to get his workshop stuff completed for tonight. (He's running a workshop tonight and has his IRC meeting!) He's the Vice President aka Big Man on campus.

So there's the update on Brandy.

As for the captain:
Got a call from my "foreign friend" aka RHEA!!!! She's one of my many buddies from camp seafarer! It was her 22nd b-day and Ivey and I got to call her and talk to her briefly (despite our stuggle w/ the time difference) I miss you ladies! Can't wait to see you in Charleston this summer!!!!!

Formal rocked! Although it was a werid event at the same time because alot of my sorority sisters didn't show up. I work this goregous strapless purple dress. Brandy looked so hansom in his tux. It's so werid to think a year ago, this time of year we were just starting out. It was such a nice dance for the two of us 'cuz it was kind of like our anniversary dance although it was a little bit earlier this year. Crazy how time flys. April 24th marks 1 year for Brandy and Jessica!!!! He's the love of my life! I don't remember a time when I was happier!

On a more "agressive" note... This week is Greek Week, which is supposed to be when the greeks celebrate their "greekhood" but really it's an unoffical war. It's the only time when we "fight" on a level playing feild. And so far, the chi o's are winning!!!!! (delta zeta has won 4 years in a row, it's time to bring the streak to an end) So, tonight I'm playing kick ball against alpha delta pi! If you have time, be sure to come cheer us on! 'cuz we all know chi omega is the best!!!! GW is so much fun because it's great to spend so much time w/ my sisters!!!!! They all rock my world!

In other news... less than 3 weeks from now I'll be HOME. I haven't been home since the summer of my freshman year, so it should be interesting. I bet people are beting on who will win the epic battle between my mom and I. LOL. I'm just messing w/ you. It'll be a fun Gilbert Family Summer. ('cuz we all know the Gilbert family rocks!!!) They are some of the greatest people I know! The only thing that will suck is that I'll be working at the Greenville Best Buy. eww!!!!!! But you know what makes it worth it: STACY, ROBIN AND AMILA!!! All 3 will be in g-vegas this summer! The cool part of the greenville crowd will all be there soaking up the sun w/ occasional visits from the one the only Katie Ball! (plus 2 silly girls will be turning 21)

I can't wait for the summer to get started. Here are my goals for the summer:
-take one education class
-spend lots of time w/ my family
-spend lots of time w/ my friends
-see brandy as often as I can
-finish my photo album
-get lots of money so I can buy myself a nice big bed for next year!

Well, I love all of you!!! Sorry if I have been unavilabe recently. I'm studying hard so I can get (cross your fingers so I don't jinx it) a 4.0!!!!!

Love always,
Captain aka Jess

doing exactly what I'm not supposed to be doing

Thu, 31 Mar 2005 19:45:00 GMT

This is me doing exactly what I'm not supposed to be doing. Okay, I came to the library with a few goals: Finish writting my Information Systems Paper, Study for my Moral Issues Quiz, and Figure out a Topic for my World at War Paper. Have I accomplished any of that????? I'd like to say yes, but instead I'm day dreaming and finding other things to do on the Internet instead of studying.

A fun past time is checking up on away messages, profiles, pictures, and online journals. I have over 200 people on my buddy list... this takes up alot of time. LOL. The library used to be the place. It was the one place on campus I never failed to cocentrate. I think it's 'cuz I brought my dang on iBook to type up my paper.

So now I'm stalling....

School's going well! This week is the wishing well, and the Chi O's are out raising money for Make-A-Wish. Kelly's Grandmother is in town, which is exciting! Big-Sis/Lil-Sis Find is Friday. So, lots of sorority stuff!

Well, Robin and Stacy if you are reading this, please leave me a message or call me! I miss you guys so much!

Okay, um, back to my "homework" I guess. I'm going to concetrate... and WITHOUT the coffee!

love,
jess

just plain sweet

Tue, 22 Mar 2005 16:51:00 GMT

This weekend was super exciting for me!

I know it sounds dull to some of you, but this fall I get to be a Sigma Rho Chi! A Sigma Rho Chi is a Sorirty Recruitment Counselor! My job is to take care of, introduce intelligent young woman to the wonderful greek system we have in place at North Carolina State University. An in order to do this, I must be neutral and therefore disassociate with my sorority so that I am completely seen and act unbiased.

I had my retreat Sunday and I had so much fun! Although, it sucked that I couldn't watch the NCSU Basketball game! Only the last 30 seconds! We won might I add! NCSU is in the sweet sixteen for the first time in 16 years!

The weekend was just plain sweet...

The reteat was awesome. I didn't expect it to be so much fun. The greek women there were amazing, and I'm so proud to say we're all apart of the same system. I have a great group of girls to work with and I was comforted when I met the group this weekend, because now I feel that disassocation from my chapter won't be as hard as I once thought! I'm so excited that I decided to take on this challenge. I think this will help me grow as a person, and help me even more appreciate my sorority.

So, if you aren't in a sorority, RUSH!!!!!! Just rushing is so much fun 'cuz you meet so many people.

My week at school has been so short. It's a 3 day week, then holiday. By the way, what teacher gives a test. Has all the students ready to take it, then starts lecturing, then gives the test. Talk about werid, and cruel. Luckily, I always go to class, but still, sucked for the other students. This teacher is so spacy. Nice guy, but spacy. Although I work over break, and I'm trying to remediy that fact. But it should be relaxing either way. Plus, it'll be nice to hang out w/ my family.

Easter should be interesting this year because Brandy's going to be w/ the family. My sibblings don't deal w/ change that well, but they can deal.

So here's an update on Stacy's wedding situation (she doesn't have a journal anymore so I feel it's my duty to share this information with you).

-She's now offically a flower girl!!!!! (aparently there were issues w/ the orignial girls who were to do it)
-The bride is now going to supervise Stacy's lessons because she thought stacy was serious about playing the music and "faking" that she's playing if she doesn't learn the music in time.

This woman is psyco! Stacy, I still maintain my position that you should quit and not particpate. (Now if it were Amila's wedding, I'd have a different opinion)

Well, I'm off to work!

Love always,
jess

"honorary attendee"

Sat, 19 Mar 2005 12:51:00 GMT

So, I have worked 80 hours at best buy in the last 2 weeks. And here I thought I was part-time! Well, I got it all straightened out, so it's all good. I'm back to working part time hours next week. It's just so many people quit and got fired, so all the rest of us have had to cover for the missing bodies. I guess being a cashier isn't a diserable employment. could it be because no one wants to offer the magazines or how about those silly prp's?

Spring Break was great. I got to be miss independent and work all sping break. I was the only soul in the house besides the house mom. It was kind of nice, but then again freaky. I had a few scares because of the werid shadows. I got to hang out with Brandy in Chapel Hill and his mother. She's such a sweet heart, like a second mother almost to me. I just hope our relationship deepens. And same with his sister. She's really cool, I just don't know her well.

I even got to see my family some, and of course Stacy. Stacy rocks my socks. Only the two of us would stand in line at Hechis for 20 mins and make friends with the other ladies in line. Poor thing. Stacy is an "honorary attendee" in an acquainces wedding... more details later. I want to leave some of the story for stacy. It's a really, really funny story.

And, for the record, when I do plan my wedding I will not make everyone wear ugly dresses, or make "honoary attendee" buy matching dresses. And if you can't stand up during the wedding as a bridesmaid, i'm sorry but I'll find a replacement, not get someone to be a "stand in bridesmaid". Enough said.

So, this weekend is crazy. I had so much fun last night w/ Brandy, my sister and her friend Laura. We went out to eat and then saw the movie "robots", which was a fun movie. Plus, Ewan McGregor is in it!!!!! Today, I have to work at Best Buy... all day, yuck. Then, tommrow I have my SIGMA RHO CHI RETREAT! In other words I'm a sorority recruitment couselor this fall for fall rush!!!!! how exciting! It's going to be so much fun! I can't wait to meet the other girls.

Well, I'm off to earn some $$$$$$. Don't you guys like this new easyjournal thing? If you guys could leave me a message so I know who reads this thing, that would rock my socks!

Love to all of you!

love,
jess

2 more weeks 'til formal. (i have the best date ever-> my boyfriend)

4 more weeks 'til brandy's 21st

4 more weeks 3 days until our 1 year anniversery!

oh, and school is going to be out soon. what's everyone's game plan for the summer?

I forgot the golden rule

Thu, 20 Jan 2005 09:21:00 GMT

Do you know what I hate most about professors? When they don't show up to class and don't let anyone else know that they are not showing up to class. I woke up this morning at 8 o'clock knowing that it was very important that I attend his class. I even took a shower, and got my notebook in order. What happens? 10:10am rolls around, and there isn't a professor in sight. How rude is that? I lost 2 hours of sleep!!!!!!!!

On a lighter note, it snowed here in Raleigh. We were all excitied indiviuals in best buy, watching the snow as it fell. We were even playing football at one point. I really do have some awesome co-workers at best buy. They make my job even more fun.

But of course, I forgot the golden rule. Snow is much more fun to look at then to DRIVE in it. And we all know Southerns can't drive in the snow. So, it ended up taking me unitl 3:30 to get to campus (aka 2 hours). I missed my one class. So, I ended up picking up Brandy and driving to Harris Teater. Can you believe that the Wolfline buses just stopped moving? They didn't even care where they were! It was a mad house I tell you.

Being the sweet, understand, kind person Brandy is, he bought me Starbucks coffee and InStyle Magazine. Oh, how I love him!!!! For those of you who don't know him, he's too good of a person to me. So, even though it took us another 2 hours to get back to his place, it was rather relaxing, because I got to enjoy his company and Starbucks!

In other news, I know Stacy doesn't like revealing her private life, which is cool. But please pray for her boyfriend Stephen! He's going through some rough times right now, to say the least. Know my heart is always with you stacy!

So now I'm off, to read, and be bored around the library unil my next class, which I PRAY is still in session.

I love all of you, and be safe out there. I heard it's going to snow again tonight, but then again, my source might not be correct (aka. a college student)

love,
jess

"camp out"

Mon, 17 Jan 2005 10:15:00 GMT

School is back in session, and already it has been an exciting school year. I got the week off from Best Buy for whatever reason, so I've been enjoying chillin' out and getting back in the whole swing of things. I've been catching up with Brandy, my love, who I haven't seen in awhile. He's doing great. He moved into a new apartment and has settled in quiet nicely.

So, the big excitiment was camp out. We "camp out" on campus w/ a bunch of other fanatics. It's actually alot of fun, even for someone like me who doesn't get along w/ nature. I was out there with a bunch of my friends including my sister, Brandy and Amila. And we didn't camp out in vain, we won the game!!!!!!

So now I'm off to Best Buy... yes! i got re-hired so now I'm a regular employee. Then, school work!

8 risk-free issues

Sun, 02 Jan 2005 16:09:00 GMT

I still can't believe it's 2005!!!!!!

Time is such a crazy thing. It goes by so quickly. So, it has been awhile since I have written in here, as always. I'm just too busy these days.

I've spent alot of my Christmas break working for a living at the store called Best Buy. Yes, I'm that annoying cashier who asks you if you want a Replacement Plan to go w/ your mp3 player or if you want to try "8 risk-free issues of Entertainment Weekly or Sports Illstrustrated". It's a tough job but someone has to do it. It's actually alot of fun though. I get to see alot of my business class go into action and I get to hang out w/ alot of fun and crazy people like me while I work which makes time go by fast. It's like I have my own "work" family. ha ha.

But, I've been working there so much this break, that I find myself dreaming about Best Buy in my sleep... Dreaming about selling those stupid magazines or trying to scan everyone out as fast as I can! It's incredibly sad I know, but at least the dreams show I'm dedicated.

So, that's where my life has mostly been, in the Crossroads of Cary.

I have also been in Greenville off and on, chillin' with my family, who I love. Trying to beat my sibblings at Mario Party 6, although I suck, and enjoying the snow! who knew it would snow in Greenville.

I've also enjoyed lounging around with my lovely boyfriend, who I think so highly of. He's so much fun to be around and has a way of always making me laugh! I just love him, and love being around him! We've now been together for over 8 months!!!! My longest relationship ever, and for some odd reason, I am no longer afraid of commitment, and the number no longer scares me.

Just talk to Stacy, even she will agree w/ me on the committment thingy.

A week left of no school, then it's back to the books. My poor cousins have to go back tommrow! Alough I'm surprisingly excited about this year. It's all business, no junk classes, and a good history class. I have a 3 day weekend.... So, we'll see how it goes.

I won't party to hard. Promise.

love,
jess

p.s.- I firmly believe that we'll have a 4th LOTR movie... it just can't be over!!!!!!! i'm just playing, but anyways, at least we have July 16th to look forward to... HARRY POTTER!

my passion

Sun, 21 Nov 2004 12:35:00 GMT

This semster I have found my passion again. I'm now loving school again (perhaps 'cuz I'm not dying in class or anything) and I"m loving the subjects. I finally figured out now that I'm going to be a finance person. So come talk to me if you want to learn how to invest your money!!!! LOL. When Robin becomes a professional dancer and Stacy some famous writter about relationships I'll make them even richer people!

But let's all face it.

I'll do investing on the side, because what I'll really be doing is: TEACHING! LOL. Yes the theory is back, but this time I"m not fighting it anymore. I love helping others, especially kids, and after camp this summer, I knew I was born to teach high school. So, now the road is getting ever more clearer.

Sorority life is going awesome. I have done so much good for Make-A-Wish this semster! It makes me all happy inside. I have the best roommate ever. She and I are very different people, but we are so easy going and don't have major drama! Plus we both love soaps and shopping. She helped me pick out my semi-formal dress. Semi-Formal rocked by the way! Brandy twirled me around, and made me smile, laugh. We're cute together... at least that's what everyone tells me. We fit together like a wink and a smilie.

So Thanksgiving is coming. And can I say, that this is my favorite holiday. I love being with my family, eatting STUFFING and laughing around the table. It makes me so happy inside. Christmas is so over rated. It becomes more about the gifts then the people. Thanksgiving hasn't changed. It hasn't been touched by the people who made Christmas so comerical. And I love my family (even my mother who drives me crazy).

So here I go to write 3 papers and study for test next week (a two day week).

love to all of you!

Jess

oh, and we will be having the WHC! !!!!!!! good times, good times in G-vegas!

form of transportation

Sun, 24 Oct 2004 14:44:00 GMT

The Bus.

It's a form of transportation that I rely on daily to take me to and from school everyday. It could be considered a pain by many, because it takes extra time to get to class. Also, you don't have your personal space.

Okay, so on Friday, while I was doing my usual voyage to campus via Wolfline, I noticed something while I was listening to my iPod blaring in my ears. I noticed how diverse my bus was. It's so neat in my eyes. I am currently in African American History, so we are leaning about the obression of the black race in the 1800's.

While looking around my bus, I couldn't have been more proud of how far our contry has come. I mean, we weren't holding hands and singing songs, but it was so nice to see that we have changed as a nation. On my bus, we have alsorts of nationalities, both race, relgion, gender, and it was just so wonderful to see how we could all get along and ride on the bus together. I mean, this wasn't even posible back in the 60's or 50's in this country. And other country's are still having problems with getting along.

It's just nice. That's all.

Well, I'm working at Best Buy now, and I absolutely love it. I'm still very much a rookie, but I'm getting better. I have to work on becoming a better sales person. Yeah Business Majors! I love my major, because in order to be a business major, one has to be well rounded in all areas of education. I have to be a very eloquent speaker, a good writter, good at math, understand history (what works/doesn't work), and science. I love my major 'cuz I get to work with people, be on a team. Of course, it's not the same as the J.H.Rose Varsity Soccer Team, but I love it.

But I suck at spelling... I should work on that.

Oh, shout out to Rhea! She wrote Ivey, Penny and I the sweetest letter from the land downunder. I MISS MY CAMP FRIENDS!!!!!! I HEART YOU LADIES!

Well, I must go do some homework, 'cuz tonight my boyfriend is taking me out to an undisclosed location. LOL. Today marks 6 months. I love him so much. He has made every aspect of my life brighter. I couldn't be happier.

thank you my prince.

i love all of you,
jess

How I love the City

Sun, 17 Oct 2004 22:56:00 GMT

Okay, my fall break was alot of fun. I got to go out in the woods with my boyfriend, my sorority sisters, Robin & Kelly, plus Austin, Stephen and Mary. We had a good group, and they were fun. It was just such a huge adjustment. Because, yes, I, Jessica Gilbert, had never gone camping in my life. The closest thing I'd had to nature was Camp Seafarer, and I guess that really doesn't count.

So, I did it, being the good girlfriend that I am, and it was tramatic. You can take the girl out of the city, but you can't you can't take the city out of the girl. I was born on the 20th floor of a hospital, in the capital. I was not made to camp. It was fun though, it's just not my thing. I like pavement, people everywhere. I like the lights, I love to be busy. I love tall buildings. I'm just your good ol' city gal, no doubts about that.

Speaking of crazy, this weekend was crazy. I was in Greenville on Friday. Got to go shopping w/ Stacy while I helped her skip class! he he.... and we treated ourselves to something we shouldn't. Then, I started work at Best Buy! It's going to be so awesome, 'cuz it relates to my major, and I get to meet so many new people that way. I love people. Meeting them, learning their history. It's what I love and do best. Afterwords, I visited w/ Brandy's family which is always fun. He has the sweetest parents (lol.... you guys have all seen my crazy parents). I just enjoy their company so much.

And, most importantly, I enjoy his company (Brandy's). Next week marks 6 months. 6 months. In the words of Alan, "That's crazy!" What can I say, I fell in love with an amazing man.

Well, this week is the Wishing Well, so you can catch me around campus begging people to donate to Make-A-Wish. Yeah Community Service!!!!!

Hopefully this week we'll get our plans worked out for Halloween! It's going to be awesome, 'cuz the G-vegas girls are going to have an awesome girls night!!!!!

love,
jess

Rush, Rush, Life is a Rush

Thu, 16 Sep 2004 16:38:00 GMT

So, if you haven't already figured it out, it's RUSH here at North Carolina State University. And what a ride it's been! We're going to get some awesome new girls this year and I'm exited. I can't get over it's now been 2 years since I pledged Chi O! It seems so long ago. When I look back, I was so young. Who knew that it would end up being the best decision of my life?

It's werid looking back at Freshman year. Like when I walk around in Jen's dorm, even the smell of her building reminds me of things that I had long forgotten. And how quick the time goes... before we know it i'll be remembering Chi O!

So, let's make some humerous points! Jess lost her keys, dont' know where they are. Hopefully we'll find them. Our fish hobbie is still alive even though erin used TAP water! That was funny. OH, I got awesome Kerry buttons now to sport around campus. Oh, and Jessica thinks she's going camping for Fall Break. If you want to join me let me know. Here's a good one, I got written up for reading in the C-store! How dumb is that!

And might I add, I've had a fun time taking care of Brandy while he is sick. Thanks to him "I'll never see the sky the same way". He's something very special.

Oh, and shout out to my little sister, who edited my paper, and for her room mate who tolerated us bickering! LOL!!!!!!

Time to be with my sisters!

love,

jess

everyone gone makes everything exciting

Tue, 07 Sep 2004 12:00:00 GMT

So, this weekend rocked, although everything I had "planned" fell threw. But then again, is it really that important? I had a whole lot of fun with my family this weekend. It's so werid now that all of the kids are out the house. It gives home a werid feeling. 'Cuz now when I go home, I'm not the one my parents are excited to see, they are excited to see all of us. And Jenni and Jeff are excited to see everyone. I guess everyone gone makes everything exciting. LOL. So, we all just played alot of board games, watched movies, had some interesting debates

I got to see Stacy some, although not as much as I would have liked. She's busy playing golf alot. Who knows, maybe she'll be the next Tiger Woods.

So, now I'm back at State, and feeling very sick. I had a little fainting eposside, which has put a damper on my entire day. Shit happens. It's how we react to it that makes us stronger.

My poor boyfriend is sick. He's attempting to take a nap while I use his computer inbetween classes. He looks so precious when he's sleeping. He better get better soon. I don't like seeing him sick and sad. He's my prince! And I love him, I really do.

So, rush is coming... it's like a storm.

So if you are wondering where I am these next two weeks, that's what I'm doing,RUSH. But I love my sorority, and I'm more than happy to invest the time and energy in it. And plus, my little sister is going to rush! How exciting. Have no fear, I'll be leaving a play by play on here, letting you know how it all turns out.

Okay, to class, then the c-store I go.

up up, and away!!!!

love,

jess

Oh, You know I love to laugh!

Thu, 02 Sep 2004 17:53:00 GMT

I'm so sorry I haven't been writting on here. But then again, it's not like anyone really cares about lil old me! I'm hardly exciting.

This school year so far is the best one yet! Although, I never have a moment by myself. LOL. "Got alot to do in a little bit of time" Ha Ha, gotta love chessy camp songs.

So, let's see. OH! This weekend I met the Callanan Clan, and despite my nervousness, I loved his family. They reminded me of a calmer version of mine. Families just don't sit around the dinner table anymore and enjoy each other's company. They run around, go out to dinner, go see a movie together. When during a movie does a conversation happen? lol. Exactly. No, but back to the topic, I had a great weekend, even though his big sister "interviewed" me. I think I passed. His mom liked me, and that's what's important! So, it looks like Brandy and I will stick together! LOL.

Can I just say I love my boyfriend? We've been together for 4 months now! How crazy is that? I feel like I've known him for a lifetime. He's such a sweet, caring individual who I admire so much. He's had a rough August, and I'm so proud of how he handled everything. He's so funny too. The dude is bound to drop something on any of outings. Last night, he almost dropped me! How funny!

Right now I'm looking forward to brighter horizons beyond the c-store. That's right, I"m retiring. Management changed, and they suck. Why can't people ever learn that WE CAN'T READ MINDS! People just need to learn how to speak up, and handle things better. I already have had many hits, so it's only a matter of time.

This weekend is going to be awesome. I'm going home to g-vegas, and I'm going to hang out with my posy aka Amila, Stacy, Robin and I!!!! Oh, how I love these girls. They are true friends.

Well, right now I must run downstairs for some more rush practice! YEAH CHI OMEGA! It's the best sorority in the world!

I love all of you, and I'll try to write more often.

love always,

jess

aka- c-store rose he he.....

Why won't the real world just stop hasseling me?

Wed, 11 Aug 2004 18:18:00 GMT

LOL. So, I'm back in the real world. And it's been very, very strange! I'm so used to waking up to a bugle, running with my friend Penny in the mornings. Gossiping about Harvard to Ivey, Rhea and Penny. I miss my "wife", Abby. Oh, and singing camp 4 cheers. And who can forget my amazing Archery staff?

I had an amazing, life changing experience this summer. When one of my sisters asked me about camp this summer, I couldn't put what I did this summer into words. What camp does for you is unexplainable. And it's changed my life forever. So, yeah camp seafarer.

So, so far, Raleigh has been kick ass. It's so great to be around my sorority sisters again, but extremely overwhelming. Also, the house is taking some getting used to, since I'm so used to the way things were. It's also so nice to see Brandy again. I was so afraid I was going to lose him this summer, but I feel that this summer only made us stronger. He's such an amazing person, and I'm enjoying playing "catch up" this week. (he's busy 'cuz he's a super important RA)

I haven't gotten a chance to see my other Raleigh friends. Apparently, it's still summer! lol.

I'm ready for school to start, and for things to start rolling again.

Shot me now for saying that.

lol.

love,

jess

I don't know why I bother

Sun, 04 Jul 2004 18:44:00 GMT

Okay, right now, I know no one reads this journal. So I have no idea why I bother with it. But for the fun and in spirit of easy journal, I shall write anyways.

Camp keeps getting better. I have adjusted so well to the 14 year olds. If you were to see me, you'd forget that I was a pickle! But really, I'm doing great. I have gotten so used to camp it's scary. I have great friends here. Although I miss my family, my friends and Brandy.... but I LOVE all the letters that I am getting and voice mail.

[Oh, this is totally random, but here go my blonde roots. In refrenece to Robin's journal, remember who apoligized (myself) and remember who was not willing to even talk or work it out or admit any wrong (caroline). Caroline didn't try. So just give it up.

Life moves on. And I'm onto greener pastures. You live in learn. Some people no matter how hard you try aren't going to give you in return what you gave to them. It's as simple as that! A relationship can't be one sided. And finally I learned that. The thrid times a charm they say.]

On a brighter note, YEAH FOURTH OF JULY! Go USA!!!!! I also can't believe I've been at camp for 5 weeks! Where does all the time go???? Cross your fingers that Abby (my co-counselor) and i don't get sperated second session! 'Cuz I absolutely love her and we are amazing together! So pray for us!!!!

I love all of you and miss you! 5 more weeks! OH, and jen is wolfpack! YEAH WOLFPACK!

love,

jess

let's add some spunk shall we?

Sun, 20 Jun 2004 12:00:00 GMT

I have to say, I'm one of the luckiest girls in the world. WHY??? Perhaps 'cuz I have some awesome friends everywhere I go. And my friend John made a very vaild point to me the other week. He commented that these journals that my friends write are all of the following:
~super dramatic
~no humor
~and WAY to revealing (somethings just don't need to be posted on the internet)

So, thank you Mr. John Halley for bringing that to my attention. So, let's add some spunk shall we? I'll do my best to funny, and not so gosh darn serious.

Things in Arapahoe are nuts. Yeah Camp!!! I'm "Under the Stars" in cabin 40, where I'm the feared tribal chief of thirteen FOURTEEN year olds. It's awesome though. The tribe (our camp's theme) is very sororityish. And, I have befriended so many wonderful girls. (I love my camp 4 girls!) I just heart it. The camp has completely changed from last year, but CHANGE is always for the better. And it's nice this year not to have someone hanging on me all the time.

So, have no fear, the captain is enjoying camp. And I've got freckles everywhere, and much lighter hair. You probably won't even reconize me...

well... maybe you will. i'm still loud and smilie way to much!

And just a little FYI, I have enjoyed all the letters you peps have sent me. Keep writting to me, and I'll keep writting to you. It's your letters that keep me in touch w/ what is going on outside the camp seafarer bubble and two make me feel loved!!!!

I forgot to say YEAH ARCHERY!

I'm the chief, imagine that! I'm fully utitilizing my leadership skills which is awesome.

OH! I'm no longer Monty's Angel!!!! My boss quit the c-store, so now i'm stuck with TYLER as my boss!!!!! (if you go to state... you know what that means) lol. at least i've been sucking up to the right person.

So, anyways, please write away. Especially if I haven't talked to you in awhile!

love,
jess

OREGON ROCKS!!!!!